#idk if this is a theory list or fic LMAO

[fraux140]

Some König Headcanons and Hottakes

So I want to preface this by saying no hate to anyone. These are just some opinions that I think some people might disagree with which is totally fine. This is also a little bit of me pointing out some of his flaws. I love him though.

He is not a shy little uwu boy who would have a panic attack if a cutie looked at him a certain way. If he was so prone to panic attacks and his anxiety was that crippling then he wouldn't have been in the special forces and he wouldn't be in a PMC - which are highly selective.

Personally I don't fully believe that he was a colonel. The only hint we have gotten of that is a one of the 'Bad Brothers' loading screens which just says 'Colonel König' with no more context. Colonels aren't really active on the battle field and it is very unlikely you would see one in action. Officers ranked that highly are seen as too valuable to be 'wasted' in infantry combat.

Continuing from my last point, even a lot of majors and Lt Colonels aren't battle prone. Considering he would have had to have passed through those ranks to become a colonel means that he would have spent a lot of time behind a desk and commanding teams such as platoons and battalions. We don't know enough about him to say that he isn't a good leader, after all he is simply an operator with a few paragraphs of text as a background. However, his voice lines and little text we do get about him tells us he is not one to enjoy standing by and having others fight on his command. He would MUCH rather be in the brawl.

And I know that Alejandro is a colonel and very active duty, however we can assume that this is largely due to his ambition and personal attachment to his home, which he wants to protect from the cartel. I'm not saying a colonel doesn't fight, but it is exceedingly rare.

My last anti-colonel theory point - why would a colonel wear such DIY gear? I just want to say if you hc him as a colonel that is absolutely FINE, those are just reasons as to why I don't :/

Moving on, I believe him to be a sore loser. For example, he was deemed unfit to be a sniper, and so he wears a sniper hood and has that voiceline "And they said I couldn't be a sniper". Dress for the job you want, not the job you have ig?

I believe he wants to prove people wrong. Getting rejected as a sniper wounded his ego so A LOT. I hc him to be between 32-37 and if he joined jagkdo/KSK (old bio said he was German and in the KSK, newer ones said Austrian and JagKdo, now there's no mention of sf so idk??) while he was younger, say around 23-26, he's had a lot of time for that wound to heal and yet it hasn't. This man holds hella grudges.

Because of this, I think that a fear of failure might also contribute to his anxiety. If he was asked about being scared to fail he'd smirk and say there was no way. But deep down in his core it eats away at him.

This might also bleed into his social life. He's fearful of relationships and remains single for a long time. He'd rather not ask you out instead of having you reject him for trying. He'd have to REALLY like somebody and also have some reassurance or signs that they liked him out.

Cannot accept accountability for simple mistakes. He knocked your coffee mug over? You shouldn't have left it there. Hit you a little too hard in training? You should be stronger. You should have dodged it. Not his fault you're not as good as him.

Is a show off. If he is obviously better at something then you'll never hear the end of it. Better driver? Better fighter. Yeah, he's bragging about it. Again, his fear of not being good enough rears its ugly head. He deflects it on to those who are weaker - they could never be him.

Damn this was a list of negatives, but I love him in spite of all of his flaws. What kind of list should I make next? I should probably do one with some positive traits lmao.

Anyway, I don't mind at all if anyone disagrees with these this is just how I see him. Maybe one day I'll write a fic where he acknowledges his demons and starts to heal.

[ofmermaidstories]

some bnha thoughts, on this sunny monday morning (or lunchtime, by the time i finish typing sdlkfjdlsk):

💥 got walloped with a return of the post-362 grief, with the latest episode of the anime lmao. unfortunately this means i am currently in my feelies, so thank u for bearing with me as i cycle through them in the form of shitposting. 🥹

💥 speaking of the anime, i’m sad they didn’t adapt one of my favourite panels from 360, where bakugou (or shiggy? it’s never really stated, but tbh i’ve always kinda assumed it’s shiggy imagining it LOL, maybe they both are? a joint moment of horror/delight where everyone knows exactly what’s about to happen 🥹) are imagining bakugou being torn apart by shiggy’s gross giant maggot fingers sdlkjlsdjflksdjf. i mean, i get why bones didn’t adapt it (bc they’re cheapskates and and also bc it is a show for children LMFAOOOO) but it’s a really cool example of how hard hori’s art can go, and also what im chalking up as his secret wish to write a horror story lmaoooo.

🪱🧵 i am biting my nails the closer we get to the end of the manga. chapter 428 was fun—bakugou and todoroki hiding behind iida as iida gently berates their newfound fangirls was so cute, lmao. also the revelation that edgeshot is slowly… regenerating? is….. interesting. i’m disappointed that hori didn’t kill him for a couple of reasons: the first one is my most selfish, and it’s bc i planned on edgeshot being dead for my halloween fic lmfao, now i gotta rework that whole angle. 💀😪 but the second reason is more pressing and that’s bc hori is a COWARD who NEVER kills off ANYONE that has INTERESTING CONSEQUENCES. and also bc he only likes killing off girls 💀 (we’ll circle back to this point). idk, i mean, for as much as i act like the grim reaper and whinge about mha not being depressing enough (lmao), the story that hori’s been writing has always been like, pretty easy to understand. hope connection blah blah blah (i say that lovingly).

HOWEVER,

💚🍵🩸 there are a few deaths i’ve always kinda expected, in the series, with the top of that list being shiggy and dabi. i was like, hopeful toga wouldn’t die, mostly bc i wanted hori to prove me wrong with his GIRL MURDERER AGENDA, but. 💀 cue the clown music, ig. and hey, maybe toga isn’t dead—maybe she’s just in a coma or in prison and ochako’s being emo bc she wants the world to see toga as a teenage girl and not a blood-sucking murdering psycho, and i HOPE that’s the case!!! i do!!!! like, are you seriously going to tell me dabi is somehow still alive (for now, anyways. do NOT come for me, that man got deep fried in the deepest oil vats of McHell!!!!) but toga gets the chop? 😒 like i actually fully expect tenko to come stumbling back (literally!!!) so you cannot tell me you save the dustpile AND the deepfriend mctodo just to axe the blood sucker!!!!! let them all live if ur gonna be a coward about it, hori!!!!! this is what i mean about interesting consequences. 😔 the only consequence we’re getting so far is deku and ochako both kinda 🫤🥺😦ing their way into a confession LOL. i’m being mean—i think the next chapter will be them both confronting their guilt over like, not being able to “save” their villains, and that if we do get a confession of feelies it’ll be something like ochako saying, “i like you deku, and/but i want to be a great hero too, to save people like toga in the future”. 🥹 maybe??? guess we’ll see. 🥺

🌇💀 my pet theory for the vaguely-tenko shaped rando that’s stumbling through the rumble is that it is indeed tenko, and that deku will somehow find him to help him and that’s how deku will get his powers back. and if he doesn’t and hori ends the series with deku being quirkless i will actually, and i mean this very sincerely, stop writing fanfic LMFAOOOO. ok im maybe like, half joking. 😒 but i have never been a fan of the quirkless deku ending and now im getting scared that’s what we’re gonna get!!!!! 😦 in one of his latest interviews, hori mentions something about wanting to strip away labels from people (characters) to see the human underneath them? soooo i guess we’ll just have to trust in him and these next two (TWO) chapters. 🥹

for all my whinging i do like bnha lmao. i whinge because i like it, and tbh i probably wouldn’t change a thing of it. 🥺 all the frustrating gaps—like those perceived consequences i keep getting worked up over the lack of—are what makes it fun to write and read fic for. 🥹 and it’s been fun watching the characters change!!! i was in a bookstore, yesterday, picking up a copy of volume 38 and the girl at the counter and i started talking about the series—the pros and cons of binging it vs keeping up weekly, the change in bakugou’s character and how reading over fics with him and his older characterisation can be kinda hard, now. how scary it was that it’s coming to an end!!! she and i have talked before—when i was buying volume 36 lmao—about whether bakugou could be canonically read as queer vs asexual, and like, idk any other series that has such a mainstream reach that you could have these outside conversations with other people in your day to day, outside of a twitter or tumblr sphere! that’s the power of my hero. and im glad to be here for the ride. and no matter how it ends, it’ll be fun, and worth it. 🥹

[azsazz]

SJM Ask Game

Thank you for the tag @daydreaming-nerd !! 💙💙 (I do want to hear those redacted answers for where you put tharion lol) I feel like it's been so long since I've been on tumblr or even done one of these but I'm excited💙

1) What’s your favourite SJM book?

Hmmmm I'm gonna say ACOMAF because that's when I was first introduced to Azzy and the obsession began 💙😈

2) Which is your favourite series (tog, acotar or cc)

If you don't know me, CC is one of the worst books I've ever read. It's hard to choose between ACOTAR and TOG tho because they were both really good....

3) Who is your favourite character? (And why?)

Hehehehehehehehe. Az obviously 🥰

4) Do you have a favourite quote from one of the books?

Hmmmm...tbh not really...the ones that stay stuck in my head are the cringey ones...BUT, let's go with "Cassian shot him a glare. 'I don't see you spouting poetry, brother.' Azriel crossed his arms, still smiling faintly, 'I don't need to resort to it.'" THAT'S GODDAMN RIGHT BBY YOU DONT 💙💙 legs spread for mah boi

5) Favourite ship?

Azris frfr

6) Elriel or Gwynriel? Or neither?

Azris frfr

7) Who’s the most underrated SJM character?

Oooof there's so many. Fenrys. I've never gotten enough of him.

8) Which character do you wish to learn more about?

Azris frfr. I want both of their backstories rn

9) Are there any characters you don’t like?

Bryce Quinlan and Danika Fendyr

10) Favourite bat boy?

My king azriel 💙💙

11) Favourite court?/ Which one would you most like to live in?

Honestly I'd probably either live in Autumn or Night tbh.

12) Favourite SJM villain?

Does Tamlin count? lol.

13) If you could change one thing in any of the books what would it be?

That CC never happened

14) Favourite SJM theory?

Azris frfr

15) Favourite Archeron sister?

Prob Ness

16) A character you feel is over-hated/ underrated:

over-rated: bryce quinlan

under-rated: chaol 💙

17) Aelin, Bryce, or Feyre?

Aelin!!

18) What’s your favourite character from each series?

Fenrys, Azriel, Ruhn

19) If you wrote an acotar book what would you call it?

A Court of Smoke and Cinders? (azris frfr)

20) Who is your favourite acotar blogger?

nah there's literally too many to choose from

21)What fics would you recommend to people who love the series?

The Serpent and the Wings of Night

Questions for writers

22) Easiest character to write for?

Azzy because i built him brick by brick

23) Hardest character to write for?

LUCIEN. IDK WHY

24) What’s a character you’d like to write for but haven’t yet?

lol who haven't i written for? hmmmm...maybe fenrys, aedion, or hunt?

25) What’s a court you’d like to write about more?

Dawn!

26) What’s a character you won’t write for and why?

hmmm...idk I'd like to say that I'd try anything once...

27) If you could only write for one character ever again, who would you pick?

azzy. nobody compares to him

28) Whats your favourite trope to write about when it comes to Azriel?

right now i think modern aus...in any sort. or anything that involves angst i love putting everyone thru some shit

29) What do you think is the best/favourite acotar fic you’ve written?

hmmmm...i feel like this is impossible to choose

30) Who are your favourite friendships to write about?

eris x anyone because this man needs a friend

31) For first time readers to your blog, which three fics would you recommend they read?

LMAO ummm...I'll list at least one for. every character

Az: Cupid's Chokehold or Midnight Muse

Cass: In Storm or Dial Drunk or Better Men Have Hit Their Knees and Bigger Men Have Died

Eris: You Know I Always Liked Playing with Fire or Hide

Rhys: Clandestine Love or Dioxazine

Lucien: The Other Woman or My Happy Ending

or literally any poly can't go wrong with those tbh

No pressure tags: @writingsbychlo @acourtofwhatthefuck @i-am-a-lost-girl16 @azrielhours @a-frog-with-a-laptop or anyone else who wants to participate!

[an-theduckin]

MY THOUGHTS N THEORIES ON THIS!!

PKAY OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL. IM LITERALLY SO EXCITED RN LIKE IM LITERALLY SHAKING I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. BUT STILL, IM SO SO NERVOUS CUZ IT MIGHT NOT LIVE UP 2 MY STANDARDS N NOT BE GOOD (WHICH IS UNLIKELY CUZ ID EAT UP EVERY SCRAP OF MARK CONTENT BUT STILL. IM PARANOID) LIKE. WHAY IF IT GOES AGAINST MY HEADCANONS OR SMTH. IK I SHOULDNT TREAT IT SERSIOULU N JUST IGNORE CANON BUT STILL!! IM SOMEONE WHOS CONSTANTLY OBSESSED N INSECURE ABT GETTING CHARACTERS WRONG OR MAKING THEM OOC. SO YEAH I FEEL SO CONFLICTED RN CUZ I FEEL BOTH EXCITED N NERVOUS AT THE SAME TIME.

ENOUGH ABOUT HOW I FEEL. LETS TALK ABT WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN. Okay okay so! Many things can happen lemme just list down all the possibilities. More maf lore, marks life b4 Billy, marks life after Billy n how he got 2 the void, Mark interacting with Argos/Mr plant, Mark just doing smth in the void like "A day in the life of Mark" (Just realised that's literally my fanfic's title after typing that LMAO) so yeah. Ashur said "A YouTube video related to this series is coming out tomorrow...", the word 'related' suggest that it might not be fully about Mark and could include like. Mr plant and Argos too. Which crosses out the possibility of it being more maf lore, marks life b4 Billy, and 'a day in the life of mark'. I considered crossing out the possibility of the marks life after Billy thingy but like, maybe ashur would show how mark moved into the void and could like connect it 2 Argos delivering mail 2 him or Argos being the welcoming committee for when he first moved into the void (eeeeek this is what happened in my Mark fic!) Sooo yeah the most possible thing is Mark just interacting with plargos. Ughhh but idk cuz he has interact with them b4 and ashur didn't made a whole announcement for that. Maybe its cuz this time he'll have more screen time? Gosh I really hope so. Idk man maybe all my theories r wrong n ashur just do a completely different thing and in that case I'll go hide in the corner from embarrassment. I really really hope he does this green goober justice n doesn't just ruin it yk. I've seen it happen before and I'm just so scared of it happening to Mark.

Anywaysss so yeah if u couldn't tell IM SO FUCKING HAPPY N EXCITED ABT IT IM SCREAMING

@machathecat @labratgurlz @faenemy SORRY FOR TAGGING I JUST THINK U MIGBT WANNA SEE THIS N ALSO I WANNA SEE UR REACTIOM 2 MY CRINGY ASS (/AFFECTIONATE) THEORIES!!! :DDDD

[reine-uls]

I got like a list of stuff that I'm expecting/thinking might happen, no need to confirm these

looking forward to the next update, anyway here's my list

Akaza might develop feelings for LF (idk I think it alrdy began 😭)

LF has fuxked up trade-sex w Douma to save the cult members (I think this one is kinda obvious but i still got doubts cuz LF is lowkey the gold medalist of virgins)

Either Douma dies of starvation (¿is that even possible?) or LF convinces him to go for a different meal (eat awful ppl instead of the innocent? it's giving Akaza)

LF meets someone from the corps during an outing (ok this one is crossed out since it turned out to be Akaza instead, still kinda wishing for this tho😔)

Since this is supposed to be a Reader/Douma fic and he happens to have a breeding kink, they’re an exception to the "demons can't breed/reproduce" (LF would quite literally die from the pregnancy alone but we've already seen them evade death like idk twice 💀🤷‍♀️)

that's all, stay hydrated queen🫡

I choked on the “gold medalist of virgins” 🤣 LMAO but yeah these theories are interesting. We’ll see what happens in the future chapters though 🙂 I’ll stay hydrated for you guys 😙

[coldflasher]

Answer the Questions and Tag 5 Fanfic Authors

Tagged by @kitkatt0430 and @softboydepot - Thank you both for the tag :D

1. How did you get into writing fanfiction?

So I was about 13 years old, I was scrolling through my brand new One Direction tumblr, username "its-a-1d-world", soon to become "curly-and-boobear-stylinson", a harrowing username that genuinely makes me shiver like someone just walked over my grave. Like I'm sure this means nothing to someone who wasn't in the fandom AND an extreme larrie but let me tell you. Imagine the most intensely cringe superwholock url you could have. It's on that level

And I remember seeing what we would soon come to very derisively refer to as a "harry het fic" on my dash. So like, in 1D fandom, you had your standard self-insert Y/N fics, you had the queer RPF where you were shipping the boys with each other, and then you had the "het fics", which is where someone would make up a female character for one of the boys (usually Harry bc that man had and still has an insane chokehold on teenage girls everywhere) to date. If anyone has had the misfortune to read and/or watch After by Anna Todd... that type of deal

ANYWAYS I was totally unaware of fanfic as a concept, which is quite funny because as a little baby writer I'd been writing extremely derivative pseudo-fanfic for quite a few years by that point, like stories inspired by Young Dracula or Narnia or whatever without really knowing what it was. But this Harry het fic floated across my dash and a little switch went in my brain because I was like WAIT. I COULD BE WRITING STORIES ABOUT THE BOYS?? Like this was so exciting to me because writing is like probably my biggest eternal special interest and One Direction was my like, most intense special interest at the time, so I was like WAIT. I CAN COMBINE THESE THINGS. And also PEOPLE WILL READ THEM AND COMMENT ON THEM and I was sooo convinced I was god's gift to writing at the time so I was like well OBVIOUSLY everyone will read MY fics and I'll get super fandom famous instantly.

So I wrote an incredibly terrible Harry het one shot with an original character and literally got crickets. Nobody read it. Very embarrassing. I think I wrote a handful of these and nobody wanted to know, which is fair enough because I'm sure they were very bad. But THEN I was like okay fine, well everyone is obsessed with Larry, including me (though I very much liked it in a "bromance" way at the time, so I'll write a Larry fic instead. This is Louis and Harry for the uninitiated. It was the biggest fandom ship. We shipped all and every configuration of the boys but Larry and Ziam were the hard hitters. I think I wrote a few different one shots for various pairings but then I did my first Larry multi-chapter

ANYHOO the Larry fic was a big hit, I got all the outpouring of compliments and attention that my enormous thirteen-year-old head was convinced I deserved and that was kind of it really lmao. I was hooked. When I tell you I'd update my fics MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY because I was writing so fast and so obsessively, like god idk what the fuck was going on in my head but it was the greatest high I have ever experienced in my life. I also got incredibly deeply involved in the conspiracy theory about Louis and Harry's secret gay relationship and spent the next five years of my life tinhatting obsessively but that's a whole other story

2. How many fandoms have you written in?

In terms of what I've posted to AO3, only a handful—as mentioned, I started off in the One Direction fandom, I've written for The Flash and Legends, and dabbled in Doctor Who. In terms of fandoms I've written little bits for but never shared... so many lmao, the list (as far as I can recall) includes the following:

Batwoman, Supergirl, The Bold Type, The Devil Wears Prada, Once Upon a Time, Supernatural, Torchwood, Twilight, X-Men, and bizarrely, The Witcher, apparently??? I have ZERO memory of that, but it's in my fanfic folder. No idea what that was about

3. How many years have you been writing fanfiction?

I think I started in 2011/early 2012, so upward of a decade at this point... eesh.

4. Do you read or write more fanfiction?

Definitely write. I do want to read more fic, but I have a hard time choosing what to read and I am very bad at using AO3's search functions to find what I want.

5. What is one way you’ve improved as a writer?

I've finally started finishing shit!! Big moment for me lmao

6. What’s the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

I read an entire book on public defenders for a fic where Barry becomes a public defender instead of a CSI. I own a copy of a book called Forensics for Dummies which I'm slowly working my way through for fic reasons... I feel like none of these are that weird lmao

7. What’s your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

Who doesn't love the mega long comments pulling out random lines the reader liked to yell about them. I sometimes get so excited reading these comments that I lose sleep over it lmao i love them so much

8. What’s the most fringe trope/topic you write about?

Lmaoo this is a very odd one but I once wrote a Larry Stylinson fic where Harry was Slenderman and he was haunting Louis, and either Zayn or Liam was like a Van Helsing type who was trying to hunt Slenderman!Harry down and kill him. Or maybe it was Nick Grimshaw, the at the time host of the BBC1 radio breakfast show. He was the go-to fandom villain at the time

I never finished it but that was a cool time, someone in the fandom actually composed an instrumental piano piece inspired by Slenderman!Harry which is up there with the coolest things that have ever happened to me

In general I don't know if I necessarily go that fringe. I feel like it's somewhat obvious I have a bit of a thing for femdom, and also like. Coldwest/coldwestallen in general lmao, I guess that's fringe-ish

9. What is the hardest type of story for you to write?

Funnily enough probably pwp. I feel like smut is generally considered to be just an easy fun time but I feel like my line-editing process is not conducive to smut writing thing because I write the first draft in a haze of feral horny energy and then edit and revise it over and over to the point where I no longer find it sexy at all and am unable to tell whether it's even still hot or if I've totally killed the vibe in my quest to find the most poetic way of describing the way people fuck nasty. It's very frustrating ngl

10. What is the easiest type?

None of them. This is such a cop-out but everything I write is hard because I'm an insane perfectionist and everything HAS to be beautifully crafted so at this point everything is hard. But ngl I find multichapters easiest to draft in some ways just cos I can kinda cling to the high of "ooh a new idea" whilst also contributing to the same project because the "new ideas" are just new chapters, if that makes sense? It's fitting them all together that's the hard part lmao

11. Where do you do your writing? What platform? When?

I use a combination of Microsoft Word, Scrivener, and a notes app on my phone called Penzu, which is where I scribble down all the random snippets and ideas and bits and bobs that come to me during the day. The bulk of my drafting and editing is done in Word and I basically only use Scrivener for its notecard function where you can move scenes around really easily, and then I transfer everything back into Word because of Tracked Changes. Does Scrivener have that? Probably. Scrivener has everything

12. What is something you’ve been too nervous/intimidated to write, but would love to write one day?

Honestly it's never really a case of "too nervous/intimidated" because I genuinely have never encountered an idea where I was like "hmm idk if I can pull it off", I have extreme faith in my own capabilities to an almost delusional level lmao, it's always just "I do not have time". But I do have this extremely long Coldwestallen fic that's inspired by Hades and Persephone, with Barry as Persephone, Len as Hades, and Iris as a soooort of Demeter figure which i know is weird because Demeter is Persephone's mother, but whatever, she more embodies the familial connection of the whole team rather than being an actual blood relative if that makes sense

So the concept is basically Barry as Persephone spending half his time with Len and the Rogues in the criminal underworld (I thought I was so clever for that one lmao) and the rest with Team Flash, and then the lines blur and it becomes coldwestallen-y eventually, but it's soooo long and basically split into four novels that I have written between 25 and 50k for each. It's gonna take me literal YEARS to tackle this thing so I've kinda put it on hold for now but I miss it so much

13. What made you choose your username?

So I wrote a joke in a fic that I genuinely have no idea whether I even posted it or not, it might have been in Aftermath. But basically Barry's suit gets blown up and he gets photographed literally streaking through the city totally nude (you can't see anything bc he's moving too fast but you can tell he ain't wearing any clothes lmao) and there's a newspaper headline that's like "THE FLASHER???" Let me tell you I was very annoyed the other day when I learned they already made that joke on Supergirl

And then I just added "cold" for Len lmao

[thesunlikehoney]

Miscellaneous Tag Game

thank you so much for the tag @searchingfortheuniverse!!!

A band you don’t like that many others do:

I don't like a ton of bands/artists specifically, the only band off the top of my head I would say I like that I have heard other people say they don't is AJR.

A childhood memory that you remember vividly:

I remember we had a stump that was pretty wide and flat in our yard I would get dressed up and have tea parties out there with my little siblings. I remember the dress I used to wear and the texture of the stump and the breeze on my face and the pink of my teacups.

Least favorite animal and why:

After spending a few years in proximity with my brothers ferrets I can safely say I will never own one myself.

Hot fandom take:

"the Jedi are the good guys" and "the Jedi did not do right by the clones" are not mutually exclusive statements.

Do you wear any jewelry, if so, what’s your favorite piece:

Sometimes! I wear earrings mostly, but recently a friend made me a bead bracelet spelling out "independent variables" and it is my most treasured possession.

A movie others liked but you didn’t:

Can't think of one off the top of my head. I don't watch a love of TV/movies so I usually make sure I'm gonna like it before I start it.

Three things you love about yourself:

My hair, my writing style, my... ability to be chill? Idk, I am very hard to phase and that makes me handy in an emergency.

A place you hope to visit in the future and why:

England, to visit my Great Aunt's grave.

An actor that gets on your nerves and why:

The lady who teaches the acting classes at my college. Thank you for ensuring I drop my plans to get a theater minor by committing to the "Theater Is A Serious Art Form For Serious People" take. Worst take of all time thank you.

Things you’re excited for in the nearby future?

Being caught up on my homework :' )

OH. Finally posting the three fics for various events/a zine that I've just been sitting on for months!!!

Least favorite ship in a fandom you’re in:

There are ships that annoy me more in theory but the ship that has annoyed me the most in practice is codywan. I'm sorry. But alas. Something something bigger shipping base = more annoying people.

What’s the most toxic fandom you’ve been in?

Star Wars hands down, lmao.

List three things you find beautiful about life:

Nature. The sun specifically, and just. Light. I will never get over light. My friends and family, loving them and being loved by them. Stories in all their forms and functions.

Any dreams for the future?

I graduate in three months and right now. If I can hang in there for these next three months I honestly do not care what happens afterwards T-T

How are you really feeling today?

Tired, but hopeful. I am finally getting into a rhythm with work/school/friends, and it's such a relief, and I think in another week or two I might be able to relax for real <3

Man that was a long one but also good for self reflection XD

No pressure tags @swonkohwenoeht @jaggedstartalk @ivvmell @plainshobbit @i-will-bite @corvod @hikime @battlekilt @solipseismic @beeseverywhen and anybody who wants to!

[altschmerzes]

Picking some sort of at random from further down the list: 52, 63, 73!

HIT MY 1K PROGRESS MARKER time to have some fun thank youuuuu

52. how many unfinished ideas/stories are you working on at the same time?

oh my gd im like [marge hiding her face dot meme] uh. a lot. A Lot. All Of The Time. it depends on if you mean actively or passively, and then what 'actively' means in the situation. i have. a LOT of wips i should tally them sometime lmao. no that would be really fun, actually, i should do that now and then do some kind of ask game with it. that would be another fun one to get myself through this time of year with. ANYWAYS. off the top of my head right now in terms of things i have opened and worked on in the last ~month or so, i have 'the same story' (ted lasso mediafic), 'wriggle up on dry land' (ted lasso baby jamie au), 'my dead are mine (and yours as well as mine)' (gideon the ninth resurrection break it worse then fix it fic), 'bifurcation theory' (numb3rs au heavily inspired by the bbc series 'the five'), 'one right move' (flashpoint episode 2x10 time loop fix it), 'something to hold onto' (macgyver torture fic), 'loneliness into loneliness' (ted lasso two aces qpr fic), 'never been in love' (911 aro buck fic). also some assorted gift fics. probably some others. i can't um. focus lmaoooo.

63. what’s the best insult you’ve read in a fic?

oh my gd idk off the top of my head but i am Sure it was something from @punkwixes's locked tomb theatre au

73. how do you visualize scenes? do you see it like a movie in your head, or do the words just flow?

oh i don't visualize basically fuck-all. i try sometimes but it's a little tough. i sometimes reference literal visuals when i'm really strugglin or i'll draw diagrams but mostly i know in like. described terms but not visual terms, y'know, i don't really Picture much and it's very hard for me and shifts constantly when i do.

help me reward myself with treats to get through my finals season by sending me things from this ask game list!

[hshouse]

the messy stuff is the same old. harry with taylor russell, though not kissing (yet), and louis with having freddie on christmas (as always). other than that i can’t think of anything besides petty fandom shit, like some people questioning if certain blogs were larries still

Hi bby,

Yeah very thankful I missed alllllll of that.

With some distance though I have reflected on stuff and here are random thoughts.

ANYONE who is obsessed w whether ppl believe on this or that and keeping a mental (or not??) list of who is on this team or that team needs SERIOUS help. Like I can’t express in words how much I don’t even care what ***I*** believe in much less what anyone else does.

No matter what 1d/larry is to me currently or what I think/dont think currently, my history with them aka the many many years I thought about them HOURLY is forever there in my own personal history and I cherish it so much. They/the fandom does not own that - I do. So there is really nothing that can happen now that would touch that cause it already happened. Does that makes sense idk.

I’ve stopped thinking about 99% of theories etc but I still can’t let go of thinking their absolute refusal to talk about this is necessarily evidence of EITHER 1) being true or 2) them knowing how many fans believe this and being scared of losing them. There is no third option.

Meeting all of them and talking to harry that day was a really transformative experience I think in how I interacted w the fandom. I felt in a lotttt of ways like I… peaked? I did all that there was to do?? Felt like for years I dreamed of these things and then I did them and now… what? Of course this coincided with me finish my education and starting my insane career but I do feel very much like I wrapped my 1D crazy girlie life with a bow and I’m very very proud of myself for getting what I did. I’m still a fan!!!! will go to concerts!!!!! maybe do a crazy thing or two!!! but I do feel like a chapter ended.

I can’t read fic anymore. Idk. For any pairing really. Sometimes like once every 3 months I do but idk it lost the magic for me. Maybe I read everything that the genre had to offer me.

99% of what circulates here about the legal side of things is wrong. If you ever see something legal, send it to me and I’ll tell you if it is true (and you will believe it cause I’m smart and get paid an insane amount of money for my legal thots lmao).

Will reblog this w more thoughts. maybe.

[lemonhemlock]

i have to say, you guys are relentless, i only need to post one helaemond-related ask and it inevitably brings all the boys to the yard :))

don't get me wrong, i enjoyed reading your takes & i'm posting them under the cut for anyone who wants to read such rants, but, at this point, with so little content, i feel like there's not really a lot more i can personally add to fandom critique that i haven't already said (discourse and metas anyone can find if they go through my designated tag).

so i hope you won't feel offended & this is 100% a helaemond blog but i am going to pause the shipping wars topic for the time being unless something fresh hits our port or we get some kind of news / additional content (maybe like scripts? would love to see those!)

it's been more than a year since the season ended and we've made all the arguments we could possibly make, but we can't control if there are users who still rehash the same three talking points over and over

Anonymous asked: The kids theory was always a long shot and to be fair, their paternity doesn't really matter for the ship to happen. Helaemond can still have romantic feelings to each other without the kids being his, but like you said, if the ship doesn't get confirmed as canon antis and Aemondwives will all be like "We told you so!!! You were all delusional and you should've stopped shipping it!!!!"...okay? It still doesn't change the fact the writers most likely played with the possibility. Setting up potential storylines and not picking them up in a later season is something that has always been happening in TV especially when the team behind the show changes in between seasons like it happened with hotd this time (maybe those who speculated that Sapochnik came up with the idea of Helaemond were right?). Idk how many chances the ships still has if the leaks about B&C being at the end of episode 1 or in episode 2 are real (I doubt there can be a romance after the event), but whatever happens people won't stop shipping it. Non-canon pairings have always been a thing in fandoms and sometimes they may even be more popular than canon ones. It's still baffling to me how hated this ship has become in the fandom though.

Anonymous asked: it feels very obvious because a lot of these fans won’t bring the same “it’s non-canon/made up/etc” vibe to something like Aegond or Daemond, but they will to Helaemond bc they fear it might actually happen in canon. Which, if it does, has nothing to do with the shippers and comes from the writers 😭

Anonymous asked: Some antis are now making up crap about Helaemond shippers hating on Ewan. One of them even made a list and they were listed as his top haters (they also included TB stans and L*cemond shippers but...Alicent and Aegon stans for some reasons as well lmao) while another one claimed Helaemonds are currently bashing Ewan by generally making fun of him and of his looks because of the ship not happening???? I don't know whose comments made them angry but I've yet to see one Helaemond bullying and actually hating on him. Not saying nasty H shippers don't exist but why claim all of them are doing something like this when it clearly isn't the case? At most I've seen people making fun of some of the things he says in interviews but this is not hate. People are allowed to joke.

lmao, people lightheartedly joshing around and pointing out some cringe statements is not hate, dictionaries exist!

Anonymous asked: The funniest thing about the crowing reaction all of the Ewan-obsessed twitter fans had to this supposed leak is when it comes to what canonical "confirmation" Helaemond shippers as a whole most often discussed it was a type of courtly love; probably unconsummated feelings between the two. The kids theory was a niche fun fanon theory mainly used for fics and headcanons, and most people who are still participating in this fandom had little to no "expectation" that we would see that on the show. Funny to point out that expectation isn't even the correct word to use here, as Helaemonds by and large were completely fine with no type of canonical confirmation, and were mainly excited for any Aemond and Helaena interactions we may get in the new season. It's a non-canon ship, people are drawn to all of the potentials they personally see in this dynamic, and how it can be explored in fan content. Shippers like this very rarely care about canonicity - not to say they wouldn't welcome it of course on the off chance it happened, but that is not a priority of their engagement in fandom.

[serenescribe]

Hello <3

There wasn't a limit so i hope these three 🥰 🎯 🤗 are alright?

Fanfic Writer Emoji Ask (and no limit at all! you're gucci o7)

🥰 How do you feel about reader interaction? Are you open to receiving questions about your fics?

i LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!! READER INTERACTION!!!!! comments are my LIFEBLOOD replies are my MEDICINE asks on tumblr are my ADDICTION!!!!!! seriously, the part that makes writing most rewarding for me is the sense of community i get when i write something and people enjoy it enough to talk to me about it. it's so!! it's also why i'm so active in twst rn, having burrowed in a corner in the diasomnia side of things and being very happy that people enjoy my works!

and god, PLEASE send me questions about my fics. if i can't answer it for spoiler reasons, i'll literally just say "i legally cannot reply :D" but it makes me soooooo happy to talk to people abt this. grabby hands pspsps cmere come talk to me

🎯 Have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points? Care to share which?

this is a tricky one cause i think you can only really have this if you're writing a multichaptered fic. which i don't do very much! but... yes. back when i was still working on dr54 (the full title is too long lmao) there were a few people who threw some theories that were correct. i can't remember them off the top of my head, nor do i want to list them because of spoilers (it's on hiatus but i hope to return someday!! my dear ocs i love you) but they got me SCREAMING to skep in dms ;v;

apart from that... stares at olive. you. you predicted one of my bad things happen bingos.

🤗 What advice would you give to new fanfic writers that are just getting started?

write. like, seriously, write a lot. i've been writing fanfiction since i was 11, starting at crappy oc insert niche shit that's since been nuked off the internet, to whatever i have now. and please do have fun with it! both of that sound very generic, but it's definitely true. if you wind up feeling stressed and upset by writing, which is supposed to be something that should make you feel fulfilled, then maybe it's time to take a step back.

on another note... if you're posting to ao3 and are hoping to get some people reading your works: don't self-deprecate (don't say stuff like "this fic sucks" or "idk how to do a summary" because people will NOT read out of pity), don't overtag, make sure to have proper spacing between your paragraphs (a lot of people are willing to overlook simple errors as long as it's readable, aka the spacing), and... i think that's about it, really. if you need help with ao3 posting, tbh just hit me up off-anon and i can help (<- has helped friends before with it).

[jumpinginmuddypuddles]

heyyy whats up sunnyyyy

this is a pretty neat concept, maybe there’s one for artists too!

no idea if any of these have been asked before, but could i get 4, 25 and 35?

✨

hi hobs im doin alright on this chilly october morning

4. Are there any writers that inspire you?

is it possible for me to say every single one to ever exist? in terms of fandom, there are definitely writers that are absolute weapons when it comes to gut-wrenching beautifully-made stuff that i worship (maybe i need to make a fic rec list or a collection or something idk) but in terms of actual published authors, i adore madelline miller's prose, it's just so beautifully written and makes me sob and scream and cry every time. i also love donna tartt's prose and also her characters and how deep and subtle some of the nuances in her novels are. i also love love love kazuo ishuguro and philip k dick for both their science-fiction works that manage to be so funny and so heartbreaking all at once, as well as their masterful dialogue. so yeah, i've got quite a few inspirations, but whether i actually manage to emmulate any of the gorgeous stuff they have written is TBD.

25. Have you ever daydreamed about side adventures/spin-offs from your fic? Tell us about them!

Literally ALL THE TIME. As its you hobs, my lovely mutual, I'll tell you about that hermitcraft fic and it's worldbuilding that i had planned. Before my muse was ripped from me and I fell out of touch with hermitcraft, I had visions of creating loads of off-shooting oneshots and works that explore all the different members and their backstories, and how they managed to end up in the main timeline in that au. it included a prequel of how mumbo and grian met and slowly gained each other's trust - it was agonisingly sad I will let you know now. I still have that stuff half-written because I am too attached to it but I am unlikely to ever go back to it and expand on that beautiful, tragic little world

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

It's a topic that's been spoken about so so much in recent years, but I just love how fanfiction, especially sites like ao3, are perfect symbols of how communism could and would work in our modern society. because authors do not get paid for their troubles, for their back ache and eye strain and hours hunched over a screen trying to figure out just the right words. we receive little-to-no praise most of the time, especially in smaller fandoms. so in theory, it shouldn't work. writers shouldn't post things onto platforms like ao3 and ff.net if, by capitalist standards, our labour is not being paid for. surely if it was simply a hobby, we could just write and keep it to ourselves? but because of the little communities people have built online, and the fandoms that have grown tight and strong, there is a really amazing band of people that group together to write fanfiction just because they love to do it, regardless of the time and effort taken, and want to show their creations to the world. this is especially true on ao3, which is non-proft, and is run by the people for the people. maybe that's why it receives so much goddamn funding every single time it needs it. (what a beautiful thought) sorry that last bit got super sappy, i just think it's super neat! Equally, I do think some people on ao3 need to relearn politeness and ettiquette. so many times i've had people either trauma-dumping without warrant in my comments or just rudely demanding the next chapter?? like? i am a person with work and school and a life, i cannot sit by a computer and pump out chapter after chapter for the rest of my life. it's insane and I think more people need to talk about it. I've been thinking about putting a blanket disclaimer in my notes about doing stuff like that because it sometimes has gotten so bad.

thanks so much for the questions! this turned into an entire essay lmao

check out the 36 questions for writers here

[o0sketchy-girl0o]

Hi hi 👋

❤️ 5'10 or 5'11 last I checked?

🧡 Lesbian!

💛 i can talk about string theory for hours on end if you don't stop me like literally watch-

💚 New England

~ My dog who may or may not be high on sharpie fumes

💙 My little closet demon brother I love him

💜 clueless, smart, funnyish, weird... ✨autistic✨

~ QUANTUM PHYSICIST 🫦😩

🖤 q-q-q-q-QUANTUM PHYSI- ok I'll stop

🎂 July 24!

🌙 um um um um uhhhhhh can i just say leo because i looked at a guide and it was confusing as sheep

💉 Ear piercings, the lobe ones!

🚗 Nerp. I'm a) not of legal age and b) a coward when it comes to being responsible of this big ahh thing on wheels on a road of other things on wheels that could decide to high five my car at any moment

✈️ huhhh I've gotta say maybe Paris? we went to London, Edinburgh and Paris for my birthday this year :D

🎤 probably, but nothing really comes to mind rn lol. exploding to go to the ashnikko concert tho 🤩

🎵 Ashnikko rn 😈✨

🎧 Veera Raja Veera by AR Rahman and a bunch of other people it SLAPS in 8d theatre audio

📺 Helluva boss? or a true crime series with my mom? I forgot lol

📝 Like a story? this book I'm working on that I reeeeeally wanna publish it's gonna be called Grey Matter and it's a psychological horror WHEEEEE

🔐 If I haven't opened my mouth yet, then that I'm autistic lmao 🤷‍♀️

🧟‍♀️ I almost got kidnapped like a bunch of times, and one time a guy who tried to kidnap me was killed by police two weeks after the incident, crazy story. It wasn't rlly scary tho. more like shocking. lmao.

🔥 Wait I could've just written the last one here 😧

🍓 uhhhrhrhrhrhmmmmm right now probably soft serve ice cream

🍅 i would cry if someone tried to feed me anything on my bad texture list

🍊 the transition from spring to summer<3333

🍋 Horror

🍐 wuhhhh uh uh uh ummm @ryemackerel's good au william afton

🫐 Norway :D

🍇 painfully oblivious

🍒 It's a very vivid memory of before I could walk (I'm thinking 4-5 months old) and I was crawling towards the prayer area and I was wearing this pink frilly shirt and holding a ladybug toy and the house smelled like sandalwood and there was this one specific prayer song playing idk my memory is weird

🍌 ✨social skills✨

💌 to post my doodles (CONTENT COMING SOON I SWEAR 😭)

✏️ definitely when my fnaf era started lmaooo

🖇️ I haven't gotten any asks yet 🥲 guys pls send me asks, strangers, friends, pornbots (wait what) please i'm lonelyyy

📚 when an idea plagues my brain and it nags me until i put it down on paper

📌 🫥 well, you see I haven't posted any stories or fics of mine-

🔍 a very babygirlified william afton (mostly crack stories)

🖊️ any character I don't think is angstworthy (very rigid standards)

💔 [war flashbacks] uh so i uh it's uh so there was this gravity falls thing and uh I deleted it thank dog but uhhh

❤️‍🔥 @skeletoninthemelonland's ballora huh what wha I didn't say anything what

🧚‍♀️ When I say william afton I would like to clarify that I am not a simp i just think he has very cool lore. anyway, william, tomura shigaraki, hunter from toh, and Ben gross from never have I ever. any questions?

🪐 toh, helluva boss, i forgor the rest 🙃

🌝 the owl house

🌚 any show that supports an immoral cause, idk, I don't watch a whole lot of those :)

🌹 I've never written that kind of stuff but I support anyone who does!

🥀 i don't plan on writing a whole bunch of that but erm consent is sexy

🌊 oh, I don't really have any of those. what i know is that there are many safe platforms online to find your people to share your creativity with, so if you guys are worried about that kinda thing, i encourage you to find your space.

❄️ I LITERALLY HAVE DEVELOPED THIS ENTIRE 3 SEASONS LONG SERIES IN MY HEAD ABOUT MY FNAF AU THAT'S ROTATING IN MY BRAIN CONSTANTLY

☂️ hmmmm there are a lot. one that I think of is this on AO3 by serpentauthor. it's funny :)

A couple of in depth questions!

🍄 well I have a few personal ones and a few less personal ones. I guess I would've liked to appreciate things more when I was younger.

⭐️ well, I published a book when I was 8. it's not that special lmao ik y'all have done better but it's the first thing i thought of for this question.

~ Depression. Guys, talking about it really helps, I promise! stay safe<3

🌺 I REALLY LIKED MY TRIP TO EUROPE FOR MY BIRTHDAY THAT WAS SO FUN

🍀 any lighthearted show I can watch with my brother cause it feels nostalgic.

bye bye! 👋

Get to Know Me!

This is just a fun little thing I’ve been wanting to do since the dawn of time but could never find a post to reblog that satisfied what I wanted. So I made this, feel free to reblog and use it yourself!

❤️ how tall are you?

🧡 what is your sexuality?

💛 what is your favorite feature on yourself?

💚 where are you from?

🩵 do you have any pets?

💙 do you have any siblings?

💜 describe yourself in five words or less!

🩷 dream job?

🖤 favorite hobbies outside of your blog

🎂 when is your birthday?

🌙 your zodiac (Sun, Moon, Rising)

💉do you have tattoos and/or piercings

🚗 can you drive?

✈️ favorite place you’ve traveled

🎤 have you been to a concert

🎵 favorite artists

🎧 last song you listened too

📺 last show you watched

📝 last thing you wrote

🔐 something no one would guess about you

🧟‍♀️ scariest thing that’s happened to you

🔥 craziest thing that’s ever happened to you

🍓 favorite food

🍅 least favorite food

🍊 favorite season?

🍋 favorite genre to read / watch / write

🍐 if you could make one character real, who would it be

🫐 some place you’d love to visit

🍇 a word your friends would use to describe you

🍒 what is your earliest memory

🍌 what is one talent you wish you had

💌 why did you start this blog?

✏️ when did you start writing fanfic

🖇️ what are your favorite asks to answer

📚 how do you come up with the fics you write

📌 what is the fic you’re know for

🔍 what character do you enjoy writing for the most

🖊️ what character do you not enjoy writing for

💔 is there a fic you wish you didn’t write

❤️‍🔥 what character do you simp for most often

🧚‍♀️ favorite characters of all time

🪐 favorite shows / series of all time

🌝 a show you would recommend to anyone

🌚 a show you’d tell people to stay away from

🌹 favorite kinks to write for

🥀 kinks you would never write for

🌊 a kink you would like to write but you think you’d be judged

❄️ full fics, imagines or head canons

☂️ your favorite fanfic from another writer

A couple of in depth questions!

🍄 what is something that’s happened in your life that you wish you could go back and change?

⭐️ what is one of your biggest accomplishments? Why is it so important to you?

🪻what is the toughest thing you had to go through, but can say you’ve successfully overcome?

🌺 what is the best gift someone has ever given you and why is it so important

🍀 what is your comfort show/series and why is it your comfort show? How has it helped you?

[m1ckeyb3rry]

AHAHAH ok well either way glad you’re back!!! And yes OMG S2 only a week away guys I can’t believe it this is actually kinda insane

LMAO IM CRYING the jjkification of your teachers is actually so funny not you bridging irl miraverse and jjk miraverse

Yeahhh like sae canon is just too plain miraverse sae is what I’d WISH he were really like in full but alas

Also yeah um. Jjk! Well! Safe to say I won’t be all that engaged in it anymore either sadly but I feel like I’ve seen some content talking about that too and how people can get away with mediocre world building and story telling if they just let art carry I do remember specific chapters coming out where there’d just be some big impact moment in the art and people also mentioned that visual carrying theory then too…..also honestly those people saying it’s peak are also probably coming from like, cringey very mediocre isekai harems or genres of that sort so maybe they just have a very skewed bar too but agreed the gojo geto is truly not the groundbreaking pair people claim it to be…..(also LMAOO this is a safe space for ideas deemed controversial by the fandom honestly these takes are so real though likeeeee) ORV FR the dynamic is sm more complex and i think orv as a whole just is developed a lot more/better for obv reasons

SHSHSH FRR I almost forgot about those mass category posts I was originally only focusing on the random tags part but FR like I enjoy a good meme tier list every now and then like most people but I see those paragraphs you’re talking about all the time too and I’m like huh???? Sukuna and Nagi PLEASE yeah that’s a crazy combo and honestly I don’t think you can really mass categorize like that on such a broad scale if you’re actually seriously trying to categorize them as opposed to just like those memes yk

Oh yeah the tumblr drama….obv I’m also not ever involved because I don’t actually do anything here but it’s fr so dumb and insane!! I’ll see a callout post every now and then and I’m like damn yeah if that ever did happen that’s just an automatic block there’s no way I’m wasting energy on that

IM HERE FOR IT BAROU VISION EXPANSION COMMENCES!!! SHSGSHSSB he would so do that softie at heart Barou who’s like “Tch. Fine, but I’m following you” AIKU BEING SAES GUARD yes yes yes omg and Niko as his squire HAHAHA omg I almost forgot about elakshi bro wattpad insane for that I remember us talking about it awhile ago…I’m ngl when I was reading pi I definitely saw why they went after her (not in the sense of its justified or I agree but because I know wp demographics and I can see them doing something like that SHSHSH) but it’s still insane like if you’re so pressed close the tab and go write your own work tf??? Honestly at the rate jjk is going at (or not going at. Yk.) reworking it into BLLK wouldn’t be a bad way to save the general idea LMAO a future thought fs though your list just like doubled within the last week or two

It’s ok the requester will see the fic you pop out and be like “OMG Mira ATE thank you for taking artistic liberty” but miraversification of overly done cliche tropes >>>>>> but yeahhh I see what you mean!! I’m trying to think too but nothing comes to mind that screams “enemies to lovers worthy” (pause what was that comment about sae BRO???) I also don’t think it helps that I’m not the biggest fan of this trope either….im fr not one to enjoy like enemies enemies something about it just isn’t as interesting to read like two opps falling in love idk I think you’re right in that it’s because most aren’t fully developed esp when it’s just a one shot too

Oh FR??? Damn the more you know part 15 LMAO I was expecting it to have been based off like region within the game oops but OOOOH very nice very nice I see the vision!!

LMAOOO I remember them exchanging like, two words. I just know that Karasu calls him yukki and makes some comment as he passes the ball to him I think (??) but other than that there isn’t much (I was about to say maybe we’ll see in epinagi but now I realize that’s not happening because by that time nagi is long gone and we’re following nagi so uh) but anyways yuki our shining star HAHAHA it’s honestly his miraverse brand now he just effortlessly pulls off everything making Karasu his opp

OOOH lowk I’ve never actually understood how dividers work but some look pretty elaborate! The simple minimalistic ones are good too they feel very clean and easy to look at!!

YAY THATS GOOD wait on that note is typing making it worse should I shorten the convo? But continuing to manifest a speedy recovery! Also so real with the glasses thing esp when the frames thick it makes your ears feels sore ugh

HAHA real haterism posts are lowk funny but im CRYING THE EMOJI why is it so sae??? LMAOA I’ve never even used or looked at that emoji before but that’s actually hilarious

OOOOH wait behind your touch or sth??? I forgot the exact wording but I like tried it out because I thought it was interesting based off the clips I saw but ngl I could not get past the first ep LMAOA maybe I need to give it another chance but it felt too slow at the time for me that I just moved on oops maybe I just have to get through the pilot episode first…

LMAOAAOA no because I was fr like “wait why she saying it like this is a final goodbye ummmmm” but anyways…NEW PURSUIT CHAPTER IN THE WORKS OOOOOOOOOOO this is a huge win (i seriously can’t get over the jb quote i just automatically read it in his voice now)

- Karasu anon

RIGHTT it feels unreal that it’s so close!! i’m so excited i can’t wait for all of the new edits and whatnot to come out it’s going to be glorious i’m (hopefully) going to get so much motivation

looking back was it a little insane YES however it was very fun and we enjoyed ourselves and it made our very long boring school days much more entertaining…sadly i’m not really friends with that girl anymore (she was lowkey crazy i can’t even lie like i’m not sad we’re not friends because i miss her but because we had some fun times together) but the lore we (mostly me honestly) came up with was so extensive and deep i still think abt it sometimes

if sae was like his miraverse counterpart he’d fr be a fav of mine already but alas this is what we have to work with

i think it’s really interesting but also very true!! like if you have a fire artist then you can get away with doing much less actual storytelling because your artist carries you…i don’t think that’s a critique of all animanga because there are several that are only elevated by the art and the art serves a purpose in tandem with the writing — the problem to me is when the art is what’s carrying the writing or is filling in holes that the writing does not bother dealing with!! for example attack on titan — it has its own problems which i won’t touch on atm because i’m exhausted by it but in this specific aspect it outdoes jjk in the sense that you could tell the story in just words (and believe me, i have) without making anything up and it flows fairly well/doesn’t feel like anything is missing or glossed over, and the manga panels/anime just serve to give shape to the story the words are telling instead of carrying the story along on their own. omg that tik tok i was talking about had a comment that made me crack up it was like “people will see a single very simple parallel and immediately declare it peak writing” and that’s honestly so true 😭 in a similar vein whenever people praise jjk for its female cast…name one female character with a strong storyline and agency and whatnot (everyone points to maki as if she didn’t literally just become gege’s way of putting toji back in the story) they had potential but NONE of them were utilized in the way they could’ve been and to be honest the treatment of hana/angel was ABHORRENT i honestly really liked her and she could’ve been such a fascinating character but instead she was just. obsessed with a man who dgaf about her. like COME ON NOW i thought we were PAST this trope 😩 that said jjk isn’t horrible utter complete trash but everyone praises it as being so much different than other shounens but when you examine it closely it’s really not it just has a bit more angst than the typical shounen might.

STAN ORV FOR CLEAR SKIN!! as someone who read the novel and didn’t even look at the webcomic i think orv is a perfect example of how convoluted magic systems and large-scale battles CAN be explained properly and still remain awe-inspiring even without any visuals!! like the novel had me on the edge of my seat the entire time and there were absolutely zero two page spreads AND it had a shit translation like that’s skill fr!! also the female characters…the sheer THOUGHT put into the story (there are so many little details woven into it it’s insane)…the way different cultures are referenced and carefully researched so that they don’t feel like jokes (don’t even get me started on the jjk america arc idec about making fun of americans but what was the point even?? it was literally never brought up again) added in for no reason…absolutely enormous cast but they all get development and conclusions and feel like they were added for a reason??? super super fascinating dynamics between the main three characters (kim dokja, han sooyoung, yoo joonghyuk)?? MALE AND FEMALE FRIENDSHIPS??? MALE AND FEMALE CHARACTERS THAT LOVE EACH OTHER IN WAYS THAT AREN’T JUST ROMANTIC??????? this is what’s considered ACTUAL peak i think it’s so brain dead when jjk fans argue that jjk is so popular so it has to be better written than things like orv (the two fandoms have a lot of beef on tik tok for some reason) like come on now one is an anime and the other is a web novel obviously jjk is more popular…however i think a lot of jjk fans would actually quite like orv if they could bring themselves to sit down and read it!!

i agree i think in order to fit so many characters into the random categories you have to simplify them all so much and strip them of their complexities because otherwise you can’t cram as many characters as possible in there 😭 and yeah tumblr drama is so insane i wish people who put their energy into making callout posts would go work on their career or something…like let’s build our linkedin profiles!! let’s talk to people in real life!!

oh my god no because the elakshi hate is INSANEEEE listen she’s not meant to be a LOVEABLE character per se (definitely not like tullia) but she’s meant to show what reader would’ve been like if she had gone to kyoto and learnt to rely on others in a different way 😟 i also know 100% for a fact that everything people on wattpad slander her for they would’ve eaten UP if it had been y/n doing it…i think people dislike her because i never try to make her a side character the way tullia is like tullia’s in the story more but she very much so feels like she’s there to support reader whereas every single one of elakshi’s appearances are meant to challenge reader and ig people just don’t like that HAHA anyways…that’s why i always state right in the beginning of all of my stories (or at least put it in the warning) that there will be ocs because ykw i’m not going to stop using them when they make the plots more interesting and if that’s not what someone’s into then they can go read something else but they need to STOP complaining in my comments section!! especially the one person (and the couple that agreed with them) that said pomegranate ink would be perfect except for the ocs….like okay what do you want me to do about that?? a) the story is already written b) i’m not going to get rid of them especially when tullia is so integral to the plot c) idgaf what you think is “perfect” this is the story i chose to tell and you can live with it, read something else, or write your own story perfectly catered to me but i am not being paid ANYTHING for this and they are not paying anything to read what i write so there’s zero reason for the bitching i fear 🧐 it’s not even constructive criticism (which yk i didn’t ask for that either but at least that’s coming from a place of trying to be helpful) it’s literally just hating for the sake of hating…classic wattpad audience though that’s why i’m fr considering taking everything down

AHAHAH i came up with so much lore for the megumi royal guard au too it would be a shame to see it wasted especially given how things w jjk are turning out…i mean i’m def going to watch the anime and all just because why not i’m already invested but idt i’ll get my motivation back at any point…or maybe i will?? idk we’ll see but yeah like you said my workload is CRAZY now (i have 23 asks in my inbox just related to requests) so i’ll have time to contemplate this idea fr

DSKFHJJSHD i’ve been joking pretty much since i finished season 1 that i’m in an enemies to lovers w sae because i don’t like him but i can see myself ending up liking him?? especially after how much i enjoyed him in seabird and how many requests i keep getting for him i rlly cannot escape him…like i said feel free to make fun of me if i convert to itoshism (although never fear no matter how much i may eventually like him he will NEVERRRR replace nagi as my number one i am LOYAL to my man 🤩)…agreed enemies to lovers has just never done it for me the closest i can come up with is like two opposite sides of a war and brainwashing/propaganda being involved in which case i think reo or kunigami would work well 🤔 lowkey i could see a childhood friends -> enemies -> lovers deal with wildcard involved working for kunigami like add in some betrayal and all and you’ve got top tier angst

LMAOO yukimiya a victim of miraverse expansion (just like kiyora) kaneshiro refuses to elaborate on him??? dw i will happily provide…the way karasu and yuki actually do get along in canon then but in the miraverse they are opps (yuki is generally unaware) is too good imo 😭 wait this actually reminds me instead of yuki i almost had reader get rizzed up by otoya in fwtkac and have that spark karasu’s jealousy (since she would’ve actually gone on a date with otoya) imagine how different the world would’ve been 😰 although that would’ve made tabieita in bllk so funny KSDFHD karasu’s like “YOU’RE MY GIRLFRIEND’S EX” and otoya’s like “who are you talking about”

nooo typing isn’t doing anything!! it’s like the act of gripping the pencil/gripping things that’s making my muscles wig out because they got so overused…i can’t wait to not have to wear my glasses anymore just a couple more days and then i’m free!! PLS the emoji just reminds me of that one panel of him when he tells rin the goal he was abt to make was too lukewarm i think that’s why it’s so sae-coded

yeahhhh i think that’s what it was called!! ngl the pilot was a bit slow and there’s def not much romance + it does not at all take itself seriously so it’s 75% crack shenanigans but i did enjoy it honestly!! sometimes you just need a silly crack shenanigans type of show without any crazy making out or heavy romance yk

PLSSS look i’m a fanfic author i’m going to dramatize everything but trust it was more for me so i didn’t keep getting distracted by going on my phone instead of working!! like “okay if i promised everyone i’m not going to be on here until i finish my work i actually will have to finish my work so i don’t look like a liar” and YESSSSSSS NEW PURSUIT CHAPTER OUT (hopefully) SOON

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Tagged by dearie @pinkaugustmoon, thank you!! ( ´ ∀ `)ノ～🩷 this took so long i forgot abt it I'm sorryyyy T^T

Shuffle your on repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs

Somewhere Only We Know - Gustxia & Rhianne

Wind - Chimon Wachirawit

River Flows in You - Yiruma (technically not a song but I have it in there sooo)

ลั่นทม (Lan Thom acc to my translator???) - Cocktail

The Moon Represents my Heart - MLC ost

From Me, The Moon - Lav

Those Eyes - New West

Fade - Jeff Satur

Newton and Apple - Waji

You Are My Destiny - Boy Sompob

+1 BTBT - B.I. I listened to it so many times it absolutely deserves to be on the list

A very random selection u.u

Your Top 15 favorite TV shows can say a lot about your personalitycan it tho— list your favorite 15 shows

I didn't ever finish watching an entire tv shows/series' before 2023 and never got around to western shows so it's almost solely bls. chosen solely on my love for them and their re-watchability to me

also i can't do favourites so these are in particular order i love all 15 almost equally XD

Moonlight Chicken - every part of this, from each of the characters, to the ost, to the story, to the cinematography. YUM

I Feel You Linger In The Air - historical fiction loml

Be My Favourite - i don't dig uni shows usually but this one was so healing?? Krist and Gawin were great too

Mouse - Ik it dragged a bit at the end but BaReum's smile?? things with a bit of blood and dark stuff are my weak spots

Wedding Plan - the lavender wedding plotline 😭🥹And the leads' chemistry was yum

La Pluie - The doc >>>> and the ost + the brother and his bf +the cat. put a cat in and it'll climb up the ranks with me

Beyond Evil - Do I even need to say anything.

Theory of Love - I'm a fan of hurt/comfort, (requited) unrequited love, yearning in my fics. why would i be different elsewhere

Love Tractor - idk why i just loved it so so much. the locations were gorgeous. I'm perhaps in need of a holiday

Laws of Attraction - How can I not choose our favourite lawyer? and the girls?

Bed Friend - Therapeutic. I've been in a difficult place for a long, long time, Uea gives me hope <3

My Tooth Your Love - My first Taiwanese bl, and one of my most beloved shows. It left such a strong impression + they were cute XDl

Love In Translation - So good?? I went in expecting nothing and it made me smile every week (✿◡‿◡)

I Will Knock You - Another show I had no expectations of but it was So. Good. I'd love to see the lead actors in another shows. Maybe two more. Or three.

Be Mine Superstar - Probably not a popular choice but I loved the acting so much?? and the chemistry, physics, maths, biology etc etc everything was so on point

+1 Step by Step - Tumblr hated the ending but i didn't. Plus Man Trisanu u.

And I should probably mention Kinnporsche, Cutie Pie, Secret Crush On You too cause they're the only shows I've ever re-watched

jajajajaja it's so hard to choose. Why don't y'all let me choose 20? But that won't be enough too lmao

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do you have any theories for the roommate that dee burned alive? ive been thotting about that

omg okay like fr actually i have literally went Deep into thought about this before and i wrote it in my notes and was planning on shoving it in some angst fic for some reason but we all know that’s never gonna happen so here it goes (caution warning for some abusive(?) language and violence):

it’s dee’s junior year of college and she’s having the time of her life going out to parties and drinking and she goes to a lot of these parties with her roommate and they have a lot of fun together and she’s pretty but dee doesn’t feel threatened by her for some reason and dee also doesn’t feel the need to see her roommate as inferior to make herself feel better about herself and it’s so, so nice

one night they get drunk and wake up in the same bed... naked

they brush it off and laugh and pretend it’s all part of the college experience!! who doesn’t drunkenly hook up with their roommate anyway!! 

but then it happens again. and again. once when they’re sober, and then once again when they’re drunk 

it becomes a regular thing and dee can’t help but notice that sex with men has never felt this good. has never been this fulfilling. dee’s roommate says it’s just a casual thing, nothing serious, and dee agrees because she’s not a lesbian, she can’t be a lesbian 

but it begins to feel a bit to dee like they are dating, and dee’s falling in love with her roommate, and she thinks her roommate feels the same way but is just lying about it like dee is

she isn’t 

her love turns to obsession which morphs into possession and dee gets upset whenever her roommate “ditches her” to hang out with a friend, or study with a classmate. dee starts to get irrational about it. she starts thinking maybe she’s doing something wrong and that’s why her roommate doesn’t like her enough. maybe she made the mistake of letting her guard down and being herself 

so she starts to change... into what she thinks her roommate might like most, which is, well, her roommate. because why wouldn’t anyone like themselves more than anyone else, right? so she starts shopping at the same places as her roommate, but somehow those shopping trips end with her getting the exact same clothes as her roommate, the exact same shoes, anything she can find, really

when she can’t find something her roommate owns she steals it from her drawer directly and when she puts those things on... she feels complete for a moment 

dee’s roommate starts dodging dee more and more and they stop hooking up altogether and dee is freaking out about it... she starts following her roommate in secret instead of going for her classes and one day she sees her roommate bring a girl back to their apartment 

she catches a brunette with her hand down her roommate’s pants and she screams bloody murder 

the third party gets out because she’s been seeing dee’s roommate for a while (dee only finds this out after she’s been institutionalized) and knows she does not want to get in the middle of this 

dee and her roommate get into a huge fight. dee accuses her of cheating, her roommate reminds her that they were never dating and sleeping together was just supposed to be a casual thing for fun, she doesn’t like dee romantically, and dee has no right reacting the way she is

so in a fit of rage, fury, heartbreak, solemn, and the desire to take down a bitch who crossed her, dee goes to grab the gasoline she has stashed in her room and she starts dousing her roommate with it, who expectedly freaks out and tries to get dee to stop 

“why are you doing this, cut it out, dee!” “shut up, you goddamn bitch!” she seethes between tears, and then kicks her roommate in the shin. she falls to the ground. “maybe this’ll teach you not to be such a fucking slut!”

she lights the first match and drops it, watching as the fire spreads and her roommate, who’s screaming, tries to crawl and roll around to put out the fire. she’s crying, just like dee is, except while dee’s tears fall quietly hers fall with her desperate, begging, her voice retched as she apologizes, over and over and over, saying she’ll do whatever dee wants if she lets her go

but it’s too late. dee can only laugh at the ashes of her broken heart. maybe they can join her roommate in a minute 

she lights another match, and another, and then suddenly someone’s bursting through the doors and it’s dennis, who’s coming over unannounced again, who has no one to eat lunch with again 

“oh my god, dee, what the hell did you do?” 

she tries to shove him away but he grabs onto her and drags her out; the gasoline got all over the floor too and the fire is spreading 

dennis calls the fire department

as they wait dee hugs dennis tighter than she’s ever cared to and sobs hard and ugly into his chest and for once he keeps quiet and... lets her

dee’s roommate survives the fire, and has third degree burns to show for it

dennis lies to the cops and claims that dee’s roommate set herself on fire because she was obsessed with dee and did it out of anger 

but then witnesses come forth and there’s footage of dee buying a gallon of gasoline and when her roommate wakes up for the tell-all her fate is sealed 

dee tries to repress most of the incident after she leaves a free woman; she tells herself it’s a college experiment gone wrong, just stuff most straight women who aren’t psychotic go through 

she represses her sexuality even more, and tells herself throughout every dissatisfying hook up that she’s straight and that’s good because the alternative now terrifies her 

it continues to terrify her for the next twenty years, and the fears refuse to fade